ooh ahh my life is about to fly into a super crazy whirlwind.
seriously i think i'm freaked out now.
feel like thumping the table to vent out my feelingss,
but i'm not so stupid cuz i know it'll be so painful.
conscious still.
my hands are freaking cold now and i'm having gastric pain as
i skipped damn a lot of meals since yesterday.

and yea cuz i couldn't continue just now and i actually just back from
calming myself.frankly,my hands are still cold.
my heart is flutteringgggg
what the heck.i have not been this kinda feeling since ages.
why does it come back again?
shitty,it can't be.arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i just talked my my darling fiona.
i'm glad that she's fine and i gulped back my tears when i was talking to her.
don't want to make her sad.ahh
my feelings are in unison with hers.and only she could understand me,now.
we both have no clue what we was doing,and yea we are so damn regretted.
so what? nothing,nobody can help us.
i screw up everything.bish
i just hope after this everything will go smoothly.
when's my bad luck gonna turns to a good or a better one?
okayy i need some relax.everything will be fine,i know.
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nawhh i'm so disappointed in everything.
myself,my results...etc and of course..uhh
i need my grandpa now.i need him to guide me in everthing.
i'm lost. can i meet you in my dream tonight?
tens years time.you left me for ten years yet i still have not forget your
super soft and gentle voice plus your face your look.
ah gong i need youu badly,super super.
i know only you can understand how do i feel and what do i need.
cuz u dote on me the mostttt T.T
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holy shit.
i don't feel like talking to anybody and do anything else.
i just need some rest.
those who are close to me,you all should know,i'm seriously not fine.
and,don't ask me why.